It feels like every time I get my courage up, I go and look carefully at your life and I think about how I might fit in it and the sad truth is that I don’t at all. I’m intimidated by your life. I’m intimidated by you coolness. I don’t think I’m good enough for you at all, but that doesn’t change the fact that I still want you.
I only wish I were in Boston so that I could respond…
Just finished the first season of Catfish. It seems more and more like the show is Nev’s personal vendetta against Catfish… It seems that he is growing though, and I hope he will someday be more compassionate towards the catfish he exposes.
You know, i think Catfish is unfair to the ‘catfish’ they portray. Having been a catfish myself, I can say with full confidence that every catfish has their reasons for doing what they do. Yes, it’s wrong and yes it’s terrible, but if you look at the context of society these days, is it so horrible that people might take advantage of a system wherein you can be anyone you want, for a single moment? To one person, you can be yourself and not be confined by the first impression and society’s judgement. Is it so wrong that people who society have made insecure or unsure of themselves are though wrongly, able to feel ok for a minute? The thing the show misses is that the person on the other end, more often than not, is a person with valid feelings too. I like the show,I think it’s interesting, but it feels like (ironically) a perverted, hipster’s ‘To Catch A Predator.’ it seems that most of the Catfish on the show are average people who feel guilty about being Catfish… But Nev has such an air and a rhetoric about him that would have made me feel incredibly guilty, on top of what I already felt. I guess i just wish he could be more compassionate…
I think I know what’s coming. But it’s so indefinite and there’s nothing to hold me to the ground. Maybe that’s as it should be. Maybe I need to be whisked away on some unanticipated journey like i’ve always wanted. But changing is terrifying. And it’s not like it’s bad now, is it? It’s wonderful now, but i guess that doesn’t amount to much.
Wouldn’t it be nice if we were older? Then we wouldn’t have to wait so long….